Me in the Middle Holding Space for My Country

Holding Space #2

Holding Space for My Country

My country is having a meltdown…… and I’m holding space for her.

When I began writing my story a few years back, I was motivated by an underlying sense that outcomes in our personal lives are greatly influenced by the political climate that’s unfolding at the coinciding time. Our attitudes, whether we admit it or not, are formed and shaped by our political ideologies and vice versa ~ Our political ideologies are shaped by our convictions and character for the good or bad. It’s how we navigate through those outcomes that can make us or break us.

I’m holding space for me and my country. What’s unfolding now is not normal and very uncertain. I’ve been in this place before.

[Liminal space ~ When you have left the tried and true, but have not yet been able to replace it with anything else. It is when you are between your old comfort zone and any possible new answer.]

When my children and I were abandoned and were spiraling down into a very vulnerable situation, I found out who the people were who would be there for us. It was unknown territory that was not normal and very uncertain. I learned that it was sometimes up to me alone to make dire and vital decisions in the hope of moving us forward. I held liminal space for myself and my children. When it wasn’t clear who I could trust, I learned to trust myself in the midst of uncertainty and confusion. I learned that we make it through these times of crisis.

Now, I’m holding space for my country.

We’re not sure of who we can trust anymore. Sources we thought we could trust have been proven to be false. People who we thought we knew in our personal lives have shown a side of them that has alarmed us. We’re setting boundaries to protect ourselves.  Our country is showing signs of trauma in dealing with the recent events. I’m holding space for America and hoping she’ll find her way.

My journey in life has shown me that we all have experienced trauma at some point in our lives. I’ve learned to recognize those events that trigger my own PTSD responses caused by the trauma that I’ve experienced in the past. This moment in our country’s history has become one of those events. We have a president who shows all the signs of an unhealthy personality. Signs that I’ve come to recognize as red flags and abusive over the years. He strives to divide us rather than unite us. How do you detach from the country you love so much when you see it in an unhealthy relationship?

We’re all in that liminal space right now. It’s been a long time coming. We have left the ‘tried and true’, as dysfunctional as that was, and are now moving into a totally unknown territory.

My circle of trust is in my faith that divine grace and goodness will see us through. Wherever this takes us we’ll have the strength and courage to take the steps we need to take. I wake up each day grateful for being alive and wanting to devote my time to the things that bring me joy and peace. Right now, I feel a sense of sorrow for this country I love. I believe America needs to go through this learning experience that’s still unfolding. I believe it’s time for change. I believe many are ready for change.

(My eyes replaced the virus raining down on me with a beam of holy white light from the heavens. I moved all the virus to the outside of that beam.)

I’m holding space for America through these growing pains and hoping to see her move forward to a better place.

© Mary Lou  ~ 2017 (Updated 2020)

Image (c) by Mary Lou

Too Quickly

One of my beautiful blogger friends says what so many are feeling about the confusing and questionable behavior of some of our fellow citizens, including our president and vice president.

The happy Quitter!

Ein Mund-Nasen-Schutz am Strand von Tel Aviv

Feeling too safe, too quickly
Forgetting the ones we lost
What’s going to be the price I wonder
Restarting life at all costs

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Staying Home and Drawing Birds ~ Class Three

Staying home during the Pandemic 2020 has me leaning heavily on the enjoyable past-times that I used to enjoy. Turning to them once again has taken my mind off what’s happening outside my window and all over the world. I’m finding it hard to focus on reading. The things I’m turning to and finding rewarding are writing and sketching/watercolor.

One past-time that I’m getting a lot of joy out of is bird watching! What would I do without the view from my window watching all the local birds coming into my feeder. Little did I know that a huge portion of the world population is doing the same thing!

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So, wanting to focus on something that would take my mind off of COVID-19, I began to think about sketching birds and watercoloring them with my new set of Sakura Koi watercolors. Or using colored pencils.

And along comes a Facebook Post about a cool webinar Audubon class ~ Drawing Birds ~ with John Muir Laws. If you’re on Facebook, you can find the videos on the Audubon California Facebook Page.

Class Three Drawings: Raptors (Birds of Prey)

Sketches (c) Mary Lou

Photos used from birdpixel.com, seeingbirds.com and pixabay.com

For more information on the Audubon webinar please visit their website: https://ca.audubon.org/?fbclid=IwAR1QD2Cgp8uW0B447dFt4KDzR-w7Z-uj3szdSqcVcYhxT4kinowhN7rcdYw

Staying Home and Drawing Birds ~ Class Two

Staying home during the Pandemic 2020 has me leaning heavily on the enjoyable past-times that I used to enjoy. Turning to them once again has taken my mind off what’s happening outside my window and all over the world. I’m finding it hard to focus on reading. The things I’m turning to and finding rewarding are writing and sketching/watercolor.

One past-time that I’m getting a lot of joy out of is bird watching! What would I do without the view from my window watching all the local birds coming into my feeder. Little did I know that a huge portion of the world population is doing the same thing!

This image has an empty alt attribute; its file name is bird-watching.jpg

So, wanting to focus on something that would take my mind off of COVID-19, I began to think about sketching birds and watercoloring them with my new set of Sakura Koi watercolors. Or using colored pencils.

And along comes a Facebook Post about a cool webinar Audubon class ~ Drawing Birds ~ with John Muir Laws. If you’re on Facebook, you can find the videos on the Audubon California Facebook Page.

Class Two Drawings: Shore Birds and Waterfowl

Stay tuned for Class Three Drawings: Raptors

Sketches (c) Mary Lou

Photos used from birdpixel.com, seeingbirds.com and pixabay.com

For more information on the Audubon webinar please visit their website: https://ca.audubon.org/?fbclid=IwAR1QD2Cgp8uW0B447dFt4KDzR-w7Z-uj3szdSqcVcYhxT4kinowhN7rcdYw

Staying Home and Drawing Birds

Staying home during the Pandemic 2020 has me leaning heavily on the enjoyable past-times that I used to enjoy. Turning to them once again is taking my mind off what’s happening outside my window and all over the world. I’m finding it hard to focus on reading. The things I’m turning to and finding rewarding are writing and sketching/watercolor.

One past-time that I’m getting a lot of joy out of is bird watching! What would I do without the view from my window watching all the local birds coming into my feeder. Little did I know that a huge portion of the world population is doing the same thing!

So, wanting to focus on something that would take my mind off of COVID-19, I began to think about sketching birds and watercoloring them with my new set of Sakura Koi watercolors.

And along comes a Facebook Post about a cool webinar Audubon class ~ Drawing Birds ~ with John Muir Laws. If you’re on Facebook, you can find the first video on the Audubon California Facebook Page.

Stay tuned for Class two Drawings: Shore Birds and Waterfowl

Sketches (c) Mary Lou

Photos used from birdpixel.com, seeingbirds.com and pixabay.com

For more information on the Audubon webinar please visit their website: https://ca.audubon.org/?fbclid=IwAR1QD2Cgp8uW0B447dFt4KDzR-w7Z-uj3szdSqcVcYhxT4kinowhN7rcdYw