I’m making peace with my weight! I surrender!
When I was first diagnosed with Severe Obstructive Sleep Apnea I was actually relieved. This explained a whole slew of symptoms I was having over the years. When the pulmonologist told me some of the benefits of receiving treatment with CPAP, I was particularly happy when she said I would most likely drop some weight. As she explained, sleep deprivation and oxygen deprivation causes weight gain over the years if Sleep Apnea isn’t treated. That was enough to motivate me to stick with the whole plan, along with the promise of increased energy and better sleep.
As my treatment went on I was receiving different takes on this whole weight gain/weight loss thing associated with Sleep Apnea. Sometimes, I was told, obesity can be the cause of Sleep Apnea. Once you lose the weight you may not need the CPAP treatment anymore. Sometimes, obesity has nothing to do with you having Sleep Apnea and the reason is more about facial structure. It turns out that, in my case, it was the latter. Good thing because no matter what I did, I wasn’t losing weight. It was staying stable along with my commitment to healthy eating and exercise. Better to maintain and not gain, right?
Then came the second stage of my Sleep Apnea experience. I learned I had developed worsening symptoms of AVNRT which is a form of ventricular tachycardia. Heart rhythm problems can be aggravated by Sleep Apnea over the years. A cardiac ablation took care of the AVNRT and I was put on an increased dose of blood pressure/beta-blocker medication. This caused a pile on of TEN more pounds in a span of one week.
So! I’m making peace with my body and my weight. I’ll continue to take care of myself and be grateful for the quality of life that I’ve received now that I’m getting treated for OSA. I’m not going to stress out over every pound I put on or get excited about every pound I drop. Life’s too precious for that.
In two decades I’ve lost a total of 789 pounds. I should be hanging from a charm bracelet.
~ Erma Bombeck ~
Seize the moment! Remember all those women on the Titanic who waved off the dessert cart.
~ Erma Bombeck ~